Thank you, my dear friends in life and in the blogosphere, who have offered your prayers, thoughts, words of encouragement, and well-wishes over the past few days. I definitely feel much better going into Calvin's procedure on Friday than I did a week ago. I think I just needed to come to a point of realizing that our lives are in God's hands, whether we are in the hospital or in the car. And as a doctor friend of mine pointed out, the chances of this procedure having a complication are much less than the chances of our being in a car accident. Really, there are so many times our lives are at risk and God protects us, I just rarely acknowledge that.
That knowledge does not make me any more eager to give Calvin into the cardiologist's hands on Friday morning, but it does make me less fearful. I no longer assume that God is out to make bad things happen in my life. He answers prayers and gives us good things much more often than he doesn't. I also know that I have no guarantee that things will go well. But I am not expecting that or even trying to prepare for that.
I am thankful for my community that is praying us through this and whose prayers on my behalf are the catalyst for the change going on in my heart. Please keep praying through Friday. I will try to post as soon as I can after the procedure, but I have no idea what my internet connection will be like at the hospital. We should be home on Saturday.