Wednesday, January 14, 2009

This Moment

Half asleep on the couch with a sleeping newborn curled up beside me. Looking down at tiny fingers in the early evening light. A quilt, pieced together by my grandma to warm my dad as a boy, now warming granddaughter and great-grandson. The sweet, milky smell of new baby. The feel of silky, dark newborn hair against my cheek. A quiet house save for the sounds of baby dreams. Long eyelashes fluttering against cheeks just starting to get chubby. A dinner lovingly prepared by a new friend who awaits the coming of her own babe. Doing nothing.

Rest. Quiet. Peace.


There is so much to do before Gram arrives to return older brothers and join us for dinner. Groceries still need to be put away. Laundry needs to be folded. The house is a disaster, and the Christmas boxes still need to be packed up for the year.

There is so much to do before this life looks like I wish. I have so far to grow in becoming a patient, loving mommy. My boys have so much to learn about being kind and loving and respectful.

My house is not how I want it to be. My life is not how I want it to be. Yesterday was terrible, full of yelling and impatience, no one happy. Today was rushed and busy.

But right now. This moment. This is where I need to be. This is perfect.

5 comments:

wheelsonthebus said...

one day at a time, babe.

Laura said...

I agree, my dear, and thought as much re: your similar fb post earlier... So happy you could enter-in and enjoy this moment fully!

At A Hen's Pace said...

It is a gift to live in the present moment! And take the rest...at a hen's pace! That is truly why I named my blog that--to remind myself to be patient with myself, my kids, my husband, my desires.

I laughed at your IL governor comment--I've been so tempted to post something similar. And I've been feeling the same way about The Shack. We were given it for Christmas.

Blessings to you in those precious newborn days--

Jeanne

tipper said...

BEAUTIFUL!

Farrah said...

We have to drink in those moments so we are ready for all the others. I totally feel your comments at the end about things not being how you want them to be. I am glad you made the right decision to enjoy your moment of peace instead of doing something busy. Love you. Can't wait to see you soon.