Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Charting a New Course

So, things have been a little bit crazy around the Two Square household this past week. Daddy Two Square (the poor man needs a blog alias of some sort) was laid off last Thursday, along with half of his company. We have no reason to complain and are so blessed compared to many people these days. We have money in the bank, my husband already has several potential contracting positions, and my in-laws keep us supplied in eggs and milk and would even take us in if we had to sell our house.

In a crazy way, this is probably an answer to pray and the solution to many problems for us. Until last Thursday, I was drowning in the Things To Do Ocean, wondering how we would ever get support raised, prep our house to put it on the market, homeschool Calvin, get ready to move overseas, and manage the daily tasks of life. I did the math. It was impossible. The weight of stress was so heavy that I felt I couldn't breathe.

Now we are looking at having my husband working from home, likely taking the jobs he wants for the number of hours he wants a week. This support raising and move may become a reality. I feel like I am finally coming up for air.

Unfortunately, I came up to a storm of boys anxious and unsure about what it means that Daddy lost his job and is home all of the time. We are all trying to figure it out, find a new rhythm, settle into yet another new daily and weekly schedule. But God's hand is all over this situation, and we are thankful. He is moving us on to the next phase of our journey. It just might be a rough few weeks getting the boat to sail smoothly.

In the meantime, I am learning all kinds of things about His presence in the details of our lives. But I'll save that for another post. Hopefully I'll be back at it once things settle around here. I miss writing.


wheelsonthebus said...

wow. you have a great attitude.

evenshine said...

Hang in there. You are not alone, and the situation is something that you don't have to face alone. Placing it in God's hands is the first and best option, though at times hard to remember. Lots of hugs and talks with the freakouts, and much, much leaning on others, unapologetically. You and yours are in our prayers.

Jennifer said...

Sympathy to you and Mr. TwoSquare. Getting laid-off bites even if it gives you the opportunity to to make changes for the better.

Marie said...

Wow, has anyone got a job anymore?
I agree that jumping off the merry-go-round (or even being pushed off) can be a real relief and a thorough blessing. I heard a Dave Ramsey show recently where he said if you have the resources now is the perfect time to start your own business, because you get it running and then when the economy comes back you hit the smooth track.
Still, it's a real transition and it doesn't help that insecurities make things more complicated -- in our case, it's hard to factor in the body-blow it can be to a man to get turned down for a job, and it's hard to deal with mom suddenly not being queen of her house and feeling second-guessed every time dad tries to help on something she's been doing by herself for so long. I do think in the long run its a very, very healthy thing, but be sure to give yourself a break, take it easy on yourself, all that stuff.
Best to you, sorry to hear the news and I hope it turns out to be one of the best things that ever happened to your family.